Happy New Year...and I'm going into it with a little bit of anxiety. So, the final decision about my cancer is to "watch and wait" No scans or other tests until September 2010. Am I making the right decision? Who in the hell knows.
What I do know is I'm going to do my best to go on with things...like living! I will admit that it's really hard some days to not let the uncertainty creep in and mess with my head. Maybe I might just have to settle with putting aside a few pity party days every now and then. I don't care who you are or how strong you think you are...crap like this is bound to mess with your head.
My first project of the new year is to try a mostly vegetarian eating plan for 21 days. I found it on the internet and I eat most of the foods anyway. I will follow it loosely which means I will eat fish and chicken sometimes but I'm definitely cutting out red meat. It's very hard on the liver and mine knows it when I have a steak!!!
I was also very very lucky this year and received a Kindle for Christmas...it arrives today!!! I'm going to try and read more than romance novels and try books I might otherwise not read. It's funny but since the cancer diagnosis I feel this great need to know more about this world and other people.
You know what...looking back on this year I don't feel so bad after all. I still have a super husband, a cute dog, two crazy cats, wonderful friends and family, great job and for now my health. Isn't that good enough...you betcha!!!
So every once in awhile, if I post some god awful account of what I'm going through...remember it's just my pity party and it won't last long!