Thursday, December 31, 2009

A New Year...

Happy New Year...and I'm going into it with a little bit of anxiety.  So, the final decision about my cancer is to "watch and wait"  No scans or other tests until September 2010.  Am I making the right decision?  Who in the hell knows.

What I do know is I'm going to do my best to go on with living!  I will admit that it's really hard some days to not let the uncertainty creep in and mess with my head.  Maybe I might just have to settle with putting aside a few pity party days every now and then.  I don't care who you are or how strong you think you are...crap like this is bound to mess with your head.

My first project of the new year is to try a mostly vegetarian eating plan for 21 days.  I found it on the internet and I eat most of the foods anyway.  I will follow it loosely which means I will eat fish and chicken sometimes but I'm definitely cutting out red meat.  It's very hard on the liver and mine knows it when I have a steak!!! 

I was also very very lucky this year and received a Kindle for arrives today!!!  I'm going to try and read more than romance novels and try books I might otherwise not read.  It's funny but since the cancer diagnosis I feel this great need to know more about this world and other people. 

You know what...looking back on this year I don't feel so bad after all.  I still have a super husband, a cute dog, two crazy cats, wonderful friends and family, great job and for now my health.  Isn't that good betcha!!! 

So every once in awhile, if I post some god awful account of what I'm going through...remember it's just my pity party and it won't last long!

Peace out.